By nature, I am a nice, gentle, passionate and caring person who never harbor any grudges against anybody even if they do harm to me (sounds pretty strange…but the INFPS can totally relate). But…..yes but…whenever I display this soft side to the fucking retarted world, they just don’t show appreciation. The fucking retarted world wants cruelity. And so, in response to this demand, I fake the bad side, which I don’t think I have, but I have to have in order to survive in this fucking retarted world. And when I fake it, I fake it well. I fake so well that whenever I go outside, people scare to death when they look at me. They shiver, their hands shake, their eyes go into the submission mode when they are talking to me. I’m the superior, but I don’t like that and I never intend to take advantage of that.
After a while, I am just so tired faking that I reverse back to my natural side-the soft side. And immediately, people change the way they behave to me. Well, fucking stupid people, you want cruelity, you will have it.
I’m just sad that I cannot live true to myself. Well, now I think I have to learn how to spot the kinds of people which like and deserve my bad, dark side and the ones who I can comfortably display my other soft side.
Fuck the world!